Read aloud in “Ayya Anandabodhi & Matty Weingast’s Dharma Talks at Insight Meditation South Bay – Silicon Valley”
Read aloud in “Pamela Weiss Hosts Matty Weingast”
169. Four or five times I went forth from my cell, not having obtained peace of mind, my mind being unsubmissive.
170. I approached a bhikkhuni, honoured her, and questioned [her].She taught me the doctrine, and the elements, and sense-bases,
171. the four noble truths, the faculties, and the powers, the constituents of awakening, and the eightfold way for the attainment of the supreme goal.
172. I heard her utterance, took her advice, and in the first watch of the night I recollected that I had been born before.
I73. In the middle watch of the night I purified the divine eye. In the last watch of the night I tore asunder the mass of darkness [of ignorance].
174. And I then dwelt suffusing the body with joy and happiness. On the seventh day I stretched forth my feet, having torn asunder the mass of darkness [of ignorance].
When everyone else was meditating,
I’d be outside circling the hall.
Finally I went to confess.
I’m hopeless, I said.
The elder nun smiled.
Just keep going, she said.
Nothing stays in orbit forever.
If this circling is all you have,
why not make this circling your home?
I did as she told me,
and went on circling the hall.
If you find yourself partly in
and partly out—
if you find yourself drawn to this Path
and also drawing away—
I can assure you,
you’re in good company.
Just keep going.
Sometimes the most direct path isn’t a straight line.